I feel like my life is “on hold”. Like, if I was a TV program, someone hit the Pause button. Maybe it’s because there aren’t any big new changes in my life right now.
Stephen is 5 months old and we’ve definitely settled into a family-of-4 groove.
We’re slowly coming out of winter here, so we’ve been staying home quite a few months as there just isn’t much to do outside in Nebraska when it’s cold. (At least not much that I want to do.)
There are some changes at work — lots of people switching teams amongst our group and I’ll be getting a new manager soon, but it hasn’t been radical or unnerving. To me, anyway.
Financially, we have a big goal to get our mortgage paid off this year, but there isn’t too much I can do to make that happen faster. Our income is what it is. We don’t want to take any extraordinary measures to increase it like getting a second job. Our spending levels are about as low as we’re comfortable with. Just got to wait for each month to come and make the payment.
We’re also holding off on making any big remodeling changes to the house. We painted the whole interior when we moved in and put new carpet in the bedrooms. So there’s a nice, blank slate that I’m itching to put some personality on. But we’ll wait until the house is paid off and the savings account built up a little more. Plus, I don’t have a clear idea of what I want to do in the different spaces.
So I feel like life is on hold. I haven’t been in this position in a while. In the last 6 years, I’ve had 3 different jobs; met, dated and married my husband; moved 4 times; and had 2 kids.
Nothing to do but to keep marching on. I feel great about where I’m at, but I have a sense of “shouldn’t I be doing something?” feeling. Answer: Nope, I shouldn’t.
It’s just a slow and steady phase of life.